Saturday, April 10, 2010
2:10:00 PM
im so bored at home. with my boyfriend. i dont know what should i do now. i dont have enough cash to go anywhere. i sometimes think that i should have not given my cash to someone else except my family. i dont get anything in return. i dont have the urge to ask back the money. i'm just not like asking for cash from the person. i have certain depts to pay. still not paid. i regret not paying on time instead, i spend it on worthless things. my bad. tisk. how dumb could i be. learnt my lesson aite. =)..
nah, whatever it is la okay. im the one who is darn self-centered. okay then. you're the mr. right okay?
why do i still feel lost and confused. ?
i hate this freaking feeling. it sucks.
huh. just wish i could be alone.
at the park. enjoy the wind. be alone. listening to songs. and clear my mind off. i need to find a new job. this CGH screener is killing me. the pay the whatever cut off. it sucks.
i wish wish.. i just wanted to be alone. cry my heart out.. everything that ive been keeping. i just want to let it out. it just come to a point i cant hold it anymore. as i type my feelings out, my tears are rolling down my cheek. those sadness. those feelings. those words. just sometimes i wonder who could really understand me?
even i, myself can understand. how could i ever make it up. change everything?
changing my attitude is not a simple. bad habit dies hard. slowly i change for the better. it seems that 'he' cant see my changes. uh. im just confused la. i sound so stupid. this is my life. i have my own choice. for what i want to do. what i like. does that means im thinking about myself? i love my band. why is he stoping me? huh. my parents already stopped me from going band. here you are. being one barrier to stop my passion love of music. uh. i dont get you la. am i being selfish.??
beat it la. im not going band nor am i going work. i just wana sit at pasir ris park. and just clear out my mind.
am i giving other people problems. huh. still feel so lost.
i still wana be alone.Labels: i wana be alone. can?
