Saturday, April 17, 2010

12:07:00 AM

FyaZieLa MyStiQiLa

im so in love with my own name. which i kinda edit it. haha.

i love my red red hair. i dont even wish to dye it to black. super waste my money. tisk.
tomorrow will be meeting boyfie ;). i miss him soooo much. well, relationship are bound to have arguments. and ya, mistakes here and there. whatever happens, i still love him though sometime i show boyfie attitude problem. heh. my bad. im soory syg. yet still, i do love you . heheh.

apparently there are a few points thats kinda stuck in my head.

i dont know what i want in life
i will never change
my love ones kinda cant trust me due to my lies.
im self-centered

these are some points i get from other people about me. ummz. still wondering about it. i know i can change those bad points about myself. and i will proof to whoever i should that i have faith in myself that i still can change. =) go fazilah! haha.

i still need a full time job. iskhh. tuas and pasir ris.

BIG PROBLEM.

damn it. i always get rejected due to where i stay.. urgh. should i try PSA at CGH?.. ummz. the uniform is okay ~ la~~.. but there is a one year contract. i dont wana get involved with any bond/contract.. haiyoo... how? still not sure yet.. haha. dumb dumb you fazilah. bleah.

currently at home while boyfie love is working. in such a way im feeling, i miss him alot. but kinda abit irritated with his surroundings. and im not having any mood at all. i dont know why. the sudden mood swing. ;(..